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My bed leaves bad memories, and bloodstains,
All the marks on the walls, from where i lay,
Punching holes into the wall, to fade away,
The tulips that lie on my bedside,
With a fragranced note attached,

I have one goal, one achievement, one aim,
One bad reputation, two lies, seven claims,
But flowers are better than kisses,
Becuase flowers die faster, but smell much nicer,

I must thank you, as i soon depart,
Not forever, but just from your arms,
I am happy now that i am with you,
But i will never, be able to tell you i love you,
However true it is, i refuse to speak the words,
Because i love you, is so powerful and true it hurts,

The pain caused by love, is more than war,
All is not fair,
A broken heart lasts a lot longer than a scar,

I want these good things to last forever,
Because i see the truth in you, but its compelling,
Me to see your dirty side, and i want to be inside,
I want to touch you, i want to bend to your will,
But i will never say so many things, but i love you still,

The present lasts forever, and me and you are now,
So lets take these feelings in grace,
Within solitude and darkness lies the one thing,
I will never speak, But i will think, Now and forever,
I love you~

The pain caused by love, is more than war,
All is not fair,
A broken heart lasts a lot longer than a scar,

3

I'm an old abandoned church with broken pews and empty aisles
I am heaven sent
My tongue's the only muscle on my body that works harder than my heart  
Call me a safe bet, I'm betting I'm not...
I'm glad that you can forgive, 
I'm only hoping as time goes you can forget
I've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans, 
my tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
I will lie  awake, 
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you, 
let you fall for every empty word I say
If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
If I could I would shrink myself, 
sink through your skin to your blood cells, 
remove whatever makes you hurt,
but I am too weak to be your cure
Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you
I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone
As long as you're alive and care, I promise I will take you there
Today I fell and felt better
And now it seems that I have found nothing at all
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing, 
it's clear in my head, I'm screaming for something, 
knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
I must abuse myself I'm against all that I've made up
Hit me, knock me out and let me go back to sleep
I'm far from lonely and it's all that I've got
Free from the torment of sin, all this I'm giving up
I want the pain of payment
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace, 
I pray,beg for anything to hit me in the face, 
and this sickness isn't me, 
I pray to fall from grace, 
the last thing I see is feeling, 
and I'm telling you I'm a fake.

2

choke up afterthoughts of my intoxication

like i drink up memories of our lost attraction

i cant live without you, without 'us'

when i cant have you, i get close

to some guy but im only thinking of you

they dont notice my love for them is fake

i wont i cant stop my deadly addiction

until you return to me

and only me to love and cherish

even then i make no promices of relinquishment

what's done is done no time for last minute changes

but i'll keep at my awful game

allowing the nightly torture

waiting for your call to save my life

At the same time i dread the day u return

for you'll smell the defeat upon my breath

and ill see the disappointment in your eyes

my heart will crumble once again

this time to dust.

ive lost you once, twice... too much to remember

somehow ive forgotten how life was with you... without you.

My only wish on that shootin star is for another chance

 loved the way u moved with me in your arms

I'm more than you deserve

and im too good for this liquor

yet with each sip i get closer

to my blissfull happiness

the only place you're always with me.

.1

Wrists infected 

Torment gathering

Body breaking down, slowly shattering

Blood dropping

Tears never stopping

Hands violently shaking

Lose of blood, dizziness overtaking

A broken heart and a fragile soul

he left her there
      With nothing
but a broken heart 
and a fragile soul-

                             Sitting in a corner lonely and cold

                             Stranded, lost, dazed and confused

                             She wonders what he thinks

                                                                Does he care?

Just a little-

because
      hes alone
Nobody to lean on
Nobody that cares

                              Sitting in a corner hurting and bleeding
                              Stranded, lost, dazed and confused
                              she wonders what he thinks
                                                           wonders if  he cares?

Maybe-

Because the world is spinning
And hes just sitting
Drinking away the sorrows of his nights
Wondering how long it takes to die from a shattered heart

                                Sitting in a corner crying alone
                                Stranded, lost, dazed and confused
                                she wonders what he thinks
                                                                   Does he mind?

Not really-

he is leaving her behind
Running out of tears to cry
His soul gets weaker
Ripping and bleeding
Wondering what he may become

                                Sitting in the dark shivering and crying
                                Scared and wondering
                                What exactly is he thinking
                                she doesn't dare ask if he cares

he's in the corner

Lonely and cold

With a look in his eyes that she knows

Stranded, lost, confuzed and dazed

his eyes are even becoming glazed

What will she do when the world fades completely

Left behind and forgotten

Broken and sore

she wants more

but he left her there

With nothing

but a broken heart and a fragile soul-

so to the cruel world surrounding her-

she says goodbye.