The Rainbow In My Eyes

sitting alone perturbed in the gloam

the darkness unbearbale

the sadness fullblown

the day was so grey

but then your light was shown

a vast and beautiful rainbow

of silver and of gold

intoxicating so pretty

so habitual to hope

that someday I'll be with you

that your embrace I'll know

though already, I feel it

my heart, you some how chose

to be fed and to glow

fed by your love

fed by your glow

I want to kiss your skin

build the warmth I lack within 

you could start a fire

I'm ready to ingnite

my sould is the pyre

your essance is the light

living like a hole

so deep, traversed, yet so unkown

fall into me

and fall into your grave

just fall into me

fall...you cannot be saved

no, I'd fall into you

just never let me go

resltess, alone

depressed, pissed and cold

I lie awake

I sink like a stone

thrown across a lake

to shores of no haope

where everything is grey

and by now I'm just bones

at least nothing here is fake

except the concept of home

stuck in a hole

I'm all alone

bleeding profusely

losing my soul

so take me, away from here

so wake me, from this nightmare

then make me, confront my fears

but dont forsake me, because I'm all out of those tears

cause my mind works in fucked up ways

slowly translating day by day

the feelings felt, the choices made

the things I never really say

the smallest thoughts inside my brain

the fickle shit that doesn't stay the same

I feel like this now, but tomorrow will change

I hate you now, but in love remains

so deep inside it fucking aches

it fucking aches, the fucking pain

but you're the rainbow in my eyes

'casue you are the light that always shines

when Im sad, and when I cry

when things seem bad and I want to die

you're the strange glow in my eyes

you give me life because your alive

you give me a reason to live

a reason to try

a reason to feel and a reason to die

you take me out from the inside

I no longer need to hide

the storm is all over

and I am alright

you are my elation...the rainbow in my eyes

we'll watch a condle with its flickering flame

so like yourself, so much the same

addicitve and intoxicating

entrancing and so facinating

you're so much more than just a face

oh  how I'd die for your embrace

your breath taking beauty

to me your a blaze

the rainbow that so welcome within my eyes

because so often I seem to cry

I'd suffocate  my whole life

and choke on the fruit of your soul that so ripe

the sweetes poison upon the knive of your cries

stabbing me and grabbing me,

though somehow keeping me alive

I inhale your smoke, you get me so high

so drunk on the hope with this inebrating pride

oh how I love you

love you for this light

you are a god so divince

a god in my mind

and you are the rainbow in my eyes

because when I am down

you always seem to shine

you always seem to shine.....

carry on tuesday #32: A Letter To Ryan

Dear Ryan,

There are  just 4 short months until we embark on the third year our relationship. I cannot begin to express to you how amazing these past 2 years have been. I know we're both at a rough spot in our lives, but it's the beginning of  another year, another chance to start our lives anew. Now is our chance to really get things moving.  tp really Change things. This can be like a fresh start for us. I Promise to you that I will work on myself. I will work hard to fix all of these things about myself that aren't only affecting our relationship, but my relationship with other people. I love you so much and I am looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you.

                                                                       Always and Forever,

                                                                                        Jennifer

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Hey everyone, I've been really busy and I finally updated my blog and posted a few past carry on tuesdays and other poems. go check them out and tell me what you think.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

carry on tuesday #30 : I Love You

my hands open the curtains of your being

letting the light in and exposing the bits

you try so hard to keep hidden from

everyone. You've been hurt too bad before

                              we all have.

but I need you to know that all of these

things you keep tucked safely away

are all of the amazing, wonderful things

that made me fall in love with you 7 years ago.

there's no need to hide anymore

for I am here.

               and I love you.

Carry on Tuesday: I Dream Of Love

I wrote your name in the sky

and the wind blew it away

scattering it all over the place

then pulling it all back into

a whirlpool of vibrant colors

and as I lay there watching

you spin 'round and 'round

I drift off, almost as if

 hypnotized

hypnotized by the beauty of it all

and in my state of hyponosis

I dreamt we were together

connected as if by some unseen

force. completly intune with each other

inside and out,as if we had know one another

    forever.

we were insepreable, so deep in love

not a single thing could bring us down.

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I'll be counting the seconds until

the day I wake up and you're still

right there next to me.




I know this is extremely late. I finally found the time to finish this though.

3 word wednesday: LOLA

here is my first 3WW the words today are     FONDLE*. KICK.  SUMPTIOUS

*fondle-  v.   intr.
To show fondness or affection by caressing.


LOLA-

Last night I dreamt of her.
of her  heart stopping beauty
and the way she purrs softly in my ear
every inch of her sumptuous curves
drawing me deeper and deeper into love.
as I admired her through awe-strucken eyes
I began to imagine how my life would be
when she was mine. oh! how wonderful
that would be. how truly divine!
An elation fills my heart when I
begin to think of finally being able
to run my hand along the curves of
her body. and fondle every inch
of her interior.
People will look on with envy in their eyes.

                                                       most people call her silvia.
                                                              but I call her lola
          
                     oh the day when I can just
                      climb in,kick back,and
                                     drive.

<--- Lola

Carry on tuesady-- Saddest Story

This is my first carry on Tuesday.  I hope ya'll enjoy.

criticism is welcome.


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Words could not do justice to the things
She has done, has seen, has heard and felt.
Things that have made her just like an aging
Scab; putrid, and slowly crumbling away.
I fear her cards have been misdealt


                           And this is the saddest story
                                                I have ever heard.


She waits ever so patiently all the days
For that one tiny moment,that one crumb of comfort.
The moment that chases all her tears away.
Yet,it never comes. As if stuck in a labyrinth
I cannot imagine this pain and this hurt.


                         And this is the saddest story
                                              I have ever heard.


As the weeks go by she begins her descent
For the pain in her heart she cannot deny
then for the first time in an eternity of torment
she gets her moment and without a single tear in her eye
she dies.



                        And this is the saddest story
                                             I have ever heard.